Life is a mirror

Friedrich Nietzsche has said:" Life is a mirror, and the first priority is to get our image through this mirror." To be honest, this word is sad but true!

I remember my uni friend Thommo. I saw Thommo on the exam day in last year. On that day he is going to take his first year Maths exam. He told me he was 24, so he was born in the same year as me. He loved Rock music too, and his style was new metal. I wish I could be like him but I can never make that, because I am not brave enough to afford that. Although I know commerce is what I hate so much, and I know music, maths and physics are what I really want to study, I give up them. Part of the reason is my family's wish, but I have a duty to this too!

I also remember my uni friend Darren. He is 12 years older than me, and he is engaged but not married. Different to me, he was born in a working class family. I am sure he has suffered much more pain in his youth than me. However, he is studying what he likes--History and he enjoys history all the time.

Through the mirror of Thommo and Darren, I have found I am sad in my ways. For argument sake, even if I have $100,000 deposit in my bank account; will I be able to commit myself for my favourite thing? Can I play the guitar 4 hours a day for 3 weeks? Probably no... I can't do this because I can't make it, so I don't have to say "I don't deserve it".

God, I don't know how to draw a conclusion here. All I can say is I am still observing myself, so I just pray for your blessing. A-Men!